Going through cancer is very frightening. Lots of unfamiliar territory. Sometimes the journey may take years with lots of trips and turns. I know my journey became absolutely chaotic when I was undergoing chemotherapy. My nausea was so severe that I ended up being hospitalized five times with dehydration. I was also anemic. I tried to work as much as I could but it was difficult being hospitalized so much. A couple of times I went to work even when I felt extremely bad and ultimately was admitted to the hospital FROM work. On one occasion, I went into a patient's room and felt like I was going to pass out. Now that would have been impressive! Nevertheless, I ran outside the room and told my coworker how I felt. She graciously took over the work while I went to the emergency room and was subsequently admitted to the hospital.
In addition to nausea, I learned how bad chemotherapy is from a fatigue standpoint. I have never felt so tired in my life. I felt I was like a cigarette butt being ground in an ashtray. Grounding, pounding, unrelentless. Furthermore, the tiredness never seemed to get much better. I was always tired, always felt bad. Every task that I performed, whether working around the house or going to work, required significant effort on my part. It wasn't until the chemotherapy ended that my energy level improved significantly a couple of weeks later.
However, I don't write about these matters to get sympathy. I also hope that the reason I wrote my book was not to get sympathy. No, not at all. Having gone through cancer, I feel I have much to share about getting through it from a personal standpoint. Things that worked, things that didn't. In other words, I want to be a guide to anyone going through cancer.
Perhaps the greatest guide in hard times is the Lord God Himself. Isaiah 58:11 proclaims, "...the Lord will continually guide you, and satisfy your desire in scorched places, and give strength to your bones; and you will be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water whose waters do not fail." Wow! Great promise...great comfort.
A wise old hymn writer, William Williams, also looked to God as his guide. Consider the precious words of this hymn, "Guide Me O Thou Great Jehovah".
"Guide me, O thou great Jehovah,
pilgrim through this barren land.
I am weak, but thou art mighty;
hold me with thy powerful hand.
Bread of heaven, bread of heaven,
feed me till I want no more;
feed me till I want no more.
Open now the crystal fountain,
whence the healing stream doth flow;
let the fire and cloudy pillar
lead me all my journey through.
Strong deliverer, strong deliverer,
be thou still my strength and shield;
be thou still my strength and shield.
When I tread the verge of Jordan,
bid my anxious fears subside;
death of death and hell's destruction,
land me safe on Canaan's side.
Songs of praises, songs of praises,
I will ever give to thee;
I will ever give to thee."
Don't try to make it through life on your own. Look to the guide. "For such is God, our God forever and ever; He will guide us until death" (Psalms 48:14).